January 2026
Readers who have been following my blog may have noticed that I wrote quite a bit about my sadness over my recent separation from my one and only soulmate - Mark Aspinall. I feel very sad that Mark is not together with me as I ushered in the year 2026.
I try to get on with my life with each day hoping that Mark and I will reconnect again in year 2026. Through this emotional journey, I’ve also discovered the importance of self-reflection and personal growth. While the hope of reuniting with Mark keeps me going, I’ve also come to realise that this time apart has given me an opportunity to focus on myself and rediscover my passions. Learning new skills, reconnecting with people from around the world, and finding moments of joy in the little things have helped me navigate this challenging period, even as I hold onto the love and memories I shared with Mark.
My heart feels weighed down with sadness as I face yet another day without hearing from Mark. He has brought immense joy, love, and purpose into my life, and now, in his absence, everything feels incomplete and empty.
I will continue to hope that fate will somehow bring us back together again and that we will be back in each other's arms forever. Until that day comes, I will cherish the memories we created, for they are a source of comfort and strength. Every shared laugh, every lingering glance, and every whispered promise remains etched in my heart, a testament to the bond we once had. Love, I believe, has its way of finding those who are truly meant to be. Perhaps the universe is simply waiting for the perfect moment to realign our paths, teaching us lessons in patience and resilience along the way. We may be apart now, but I trust that the thread that connects us is unbreakable, stretching across time and distance until it pulls us together again.
My reunion with him in year November 2024 was the happiest day of my life. But, alas, the reunion was short-lived and was unsettling for we were without a permanent home. I wanted so much to take care of him and get us a cozy home together but we were getting nowhere and the temporary place that he was putting up with a Cambodian family at the pineapple farm in Stueng Treng was getting more problematic as the pineapple project that he was working on seems to be getting nowhere.
Now, I am all alone again. I feel so vulnerable without him by my side. Despite this loneliness, I’ve started to focus on small steps to rebuild my life and find a sense of stability. With each passing day, I try to channel my energy into meaningful activities, such as, exploring creative pursuits, and finding ways to support myself emotionally. It’s not an easy journey, but I am learning to embrace this solitude as an opportunity for growth and self-discovery. While the pain of separation lingers, I hold onto the hope that brighter days lie ahead and that this chapter will ultimately lead to strength and resilience I never knew I had.
The incident in Stueng Treng that caused my separation from Mark was deeply distressing and traumatic.
I'm unsure if I will ever fully recover from it.
In addition to the emotional turmoil, the impact of this separation extended into my daily life, affecting my mental health and overall well-being. The constant reminders of our shared experiences haunted me, making it difficult for me to fully to engage in social activities. I found myself living a very isolating and lonely life due to my separation from Mark, which only intensified my feelings of sadness and loneliness. Mark had brought so much joy to my lonely life and I long for the day to get back in touch with him again and be reunited with him forever.
Please note: Another reason (the main reason) I feel so alone and too traumatised to seek another job is due to a very bad experience working with a socalled day school in South East Asia (I do not wish to specifically mention it for fear of more unfair repercussions - more than five years ago. Luckily, I got some savings and able to cope with living frugally most of the time. I just hope I don't suffer from malnutrition with my limited savings.
I am now planning on venturing on starting my very own freelance tutoring/teaching online project.
I guess, even though I am upset with him, I miss him deeply and long to be with him again. The complexity of our emotions is often overwhelming; love and frustration coexist, creating a whirlwind of feelings that are hard to navigate. The moments we shared, filled with laughter and connection, linger in my mind, drawing me back to a time when everything felt right. As I reflect on our relationship, I realise that the bond we formed is not easily forgotten, reinforcing the idea that true love can withstand even the toughest of times. Perhaps, in this struggle, there's an opportunity for growth and understanding that could eventually lead us back to each other, stronger than before.
Another essential aspect to consider is the role of communication in healing. Open dialogue can bridge the emotional gap that distance has created. By expressing our feelings, both the hurt and the longing, we create space for vulnerability and honesty, which are vital for rebuilding trust. This exchange not only helps clarify misunderstandings but also allows us to reconnect on a deeper level, fostering empathy and compassion. Through effective communication, we can explore the depths of our emotions and pave the way for reconciliation, reinforcing the foundation of our relationship. I guess sometimes in my desperation to get back together with Mark, I can only cling on to the hope that somehow fate will bring us back together again.
My Professional Journey
FEBRUARY 2026
I’m excited to begin my teaching project for young learners! I can’t wait to share the English language with them, using the captivating poems I’ve discovered. Wish me luck on this journey!
Through poems, I hope to encourage them to express their thoughts and feelings, building both their confidence and communication abilities. Additionally, by engaging with the rhythm and structure of poetry, they can develop a deeper appreciation for language and its nuances. This exploration not only enhances their literacy skills but also fosters creativity, allowing them to experiment with words and find their unique voice. As they create their own style of reading poetry, they learn to convey complex emotions and ideas, which can lead to meaningful connections with others and a stronger sense of self-awareness.
MARCH 2026
It looks like 2026 is the year I will finally able to combine my passion in teaching English to kids to being an entrepreneur. This journey merges my passion for education with the entrepreneurial spirit that fosters innovation in learning. Not only will I have the opportunity to teach and inspire young minds, but I will also develop educational resources and platforms that enrich learning experiences. As I embark on this path, I am excited to explore various avenues, including online courses, educational consulting, and interactive workshops designed to meet the needs of both students and educators.
In addition to my entrepreneurial aspirations, I am also keen on creating a supportive community for fellow educators. I believe that collaboration and shared resources are essential for success in the teaching profession. By establishing a platform where teachers can connect, share innovative ideas, and collaborate on projects, I aim to foster an environment where we can all thrive. This community will not only empower educators to pursue their dreams but also improve the quality of education for our students, making a positive impact in our classrooms and beyond.
Since my first encounter with Teaching English through Trinity TESOL and successful completion of my CertTESOL course with TrinityTESOL, I have consistently strive to explore innovative ideas to enhance the teaching and learning experience for both myself as a professional educator and for my students.
Embracing the digital age, I hope to integrate various technological tools into my classroom to create a more dynamic learning environment. Utilising platforms such as audiovisual media and digital/printed educational materials/apps, I aim to engage students in real-time feedback and collaborative learning.
This approach not only caters to diverse learning styles but also prepares students for real-world communication challenges. By promoting the use of digital technology as a tool to enhance their English language skills, I hope my students will be able to improve on their English communication skills and English learning skills.
My journey in teaching English has not only been about mastering the fundamentals but also about embracing continuous professional development. Throughout the years, I have engaged in various online courses and peer observations to enhance my teaching skills and stay updated with various TESOL-related learning/teaching materials.
Equally important has been my commitment to fostering a positive learning environment. I believe that a supportive atmosphere is crucial for language acquisition, enabling students to express themselves without fear of making mistakes. By implementing collaborative activities and utilising interactive technologies, I strive to create an inviting space where students feel empowered to take risks and engage deeply with the English language, thus facilitating a more effective and enjoyable learning experience.
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My tutoring sessions for "Learn English with Poems for Kids" are set to begin on May 9, 2026, pending the enrolment of six young learners in my one-on-one or small group sessions.
In addition to the engaging poems that will capture the imagination of young learners, each session will also incorporate interactive activities that promote language skills through creative expression. By involving students in storytelling and performance, they will not only enhance their vocabulary and comprehension but also build confidence in using English in fun and relatable contexts. This holistic approach ensures that learning is enjoyable and effective, making poetry not just a subject to study but a delightful adventure!
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April 2026
It seems I may need to postpone my "Learn English with Poems for Kids" project due to several challenges I’m currently facing!
However, I am still keen to proceed with this project as I believe that integrating poetry into language learning can be incredibly beneficial for children. Not only does it enhance vocabulary and comprehension skills, but it also fosters creativity and emotional expression. Through rhythm and rhyme, kids can engage with the language in a fun and memorable way, making it easier for them to grasp complex concepts and develop a love for reading.
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May 2026
It looks like my "Teach English with Poems" (or shorten to TEP) have to be put on hold for awhile since I have been worrying about Mark since our sad separation in Stueng Treng, Cambodia, last year. I constantly think about him and I need to ensure he is well and ok before I can fully proceed with my TEP project.
I have also been reflecting on the importance of mental well-being during challenging times. Engaging with poetry not only serves as a creative outlet but also acts as a therapeutic tool for processing emotions. As I navigate this personal journey, I recognize that sharing my learning experiences through poetry could inspire others facing similar struggles. Therefore, once I have clarity regarding Mark, I hope to incorporate themes of resilience and healing into my work in TEP project, fostering a supportive community for anyone who is interested in my TEP project..
I truly hope that Mark and I can finally reunite and find peace with each other after all our challenging experiences in Asia. Life in this region can be extremely difficult and harsh; despite the sunny weather, circumstances can shift dramatically if one isn't mindful of the numerous pitfalls that come with living here.
Perhaps, by June, I may have more definite plans with regard my TEP project. In the meantime, I need to focus on planning another lengthy and challenging overland journey through Malaysia, Thailand, Laos, and Cambodia— in search of Mark, who has been on my mind for quite a while.
23rd May 2026
Recreated my FB page after having deleted it numerous times in the past due to various concerns. Hopefully, there will be less concerns about having a Facebook page. Anyway, I recreated my Facebook page mainly to look for Mark. I feel so alone in this world. I feel more secure with Mark by my side even though we have many disagreements and differences in the past.
24th May 2026
I find myself feeling utterly exhausted when I think about Mark. All I ever wanted was his love and companionship. That’s truly all I sought—his presence in my life. While I do feel upset with him, I don’t hold him responsible for our separation or for my current situation.
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26th May 2026
I cannot blame Mark for what had happened to me in Asia since our separation in Asia. Asia can be a very harsh place for even an easygoing, high-achiever, motivated individual like myself. Life can be very unfair, especially for me who have to live in Asia out of no choice. I have nothing much in common with their Asian culture. I feel much more comfortable with the mostly Western norms in UK that allows me the freedom to be comfortable with my own independence (of thought) and individuality. That is another reason why I crave for us to be reunited and back in UK. I wanted to be with him only and do things together in our very own cosy home in UK. I miss our simple life in UK.
Another aspect that weighs heavily on my heart is the cultural dissonance I experienced during my time in Asia. The vibrant customs and traditions, while fascinating, often felt overwhelming and isolating. I longed for the familiarity of our shared experiences back in the UK, where our values aligned seamlessly. The struggle to navigate daily life in a foreign environment such as Asia only intensified my yearning for us to be back in UK living a normal life.
I guess I was very upset about our unfortunate situations in Asia after our unfortunate move there. My own unstable financial predicament at that time did indeed worsen our problems in Cambodia which had sadly led to our long separation.
Another factor that contributed to our difficulties was the cultural disconnect we faced while living abroad. Moving to a new country comes with its own set of challenges, and adapting to the local customs and lifestyle was not easy for either of us. I often felt isolated and overwhelmed by the stark differences in social norms and expectations, which only added to the strain on our relationship. This cultural barrier made it difficult for us to communicate effectively in their societies, leading to misunderstandings and further distance between us during a time when we needed each other the most.
However, it's essential to reflect on how this experience has shaped my personal growth. The time apart has forced me to confront my own feelings and desires, leading to a deeper understanding of what I truly want in a relationship. This journey of self-discovery has not only made me more resilient but has also clarified my values and priorities moving forward. I now realise that while love is important, so is the need for independence and self-fulfilment.
27th May 2026
Will I get to be reunited with Mark? Or am I destined to spend the rest of my life alone in this world? I would much prefer to share my life with Mark.
31st May 2026
I miss Mark deeply. I cherish the wonderful memories of our Sundays spent together in London and Wigan. We shopped and enjoyed simple meals that I prepared just for us. Those moments truly were some of the happiest times we shared together.
I hold onto the hope that we will find our way back to each other again.
I am keen to return to my care work in UK and look after Mark at the same time. I think going back to UK will enable us to resume our marital relationship and it will also be a more conducive environment for us to rebuild our family life.
1st June 2026
I hope Mark will stay true to his promise to be with me forever. I am worried about Mark's wellbeing as well as my future if I don't get to achieve reconciliation with Mark. I just hope Mark will get back in touch with me soon.
3rd June 2026
Leaving Cambodia without being able to reach Mark was incredibly disappointing. However, I refuse to lose hope of reconnecting with him in the future and getting back together with him again in UK. I believe it’s important to not let external circumstances diminish my strong desire to reach out to Mark again.
I miss him so much. I hope he gets to read my journal and realise how much I still love him.
6th June 2026
Here I am on a Saturday afternoon, thinking about all the lovely Saturdays spent together with Mark - my one and only Mark Aspinall - my forever soulmate. I miss hime so much.
I just hope he is ok and will get in touch with me soon.
8th June 2026
It deeply saddens me that I am presently not with Mark. I feel so alone in this world. We traveled to Asia together, and I hope we can leave the place together as well. There are still so many things I want to share with him. I cherish the time we spent together and the special moments we created. The trauma from our separation in Cambodia still lingers in my heart. Are we destined to be together again? I sincerely hope so. I will continue to strive for our reunion. He is the only person I am married to, and I dream of sharing the rest of my life with him.
I constantly worry about my future all alone in this part of the world called South East Asia - too many traumatic incidents happened to me personally and the constant feeling of insecurity and feeling alienated all the time despite me being from this part of the world! it left a scar on me.
I don't think I would be able to recover from all the too many traumatic experiences in Asia. Life can be unfair and harsh.
It is not easy living in a predominantly Asian culture - often times, it is extremely uncomfortable, harsh and extremely unfair if one is not well-off.
Life in predominantly Western countries is much more professional, much more straightforward and much more consistent despite all the numerous challenges that come with it. For example, it is much easier to live a fully independent life in Western countries. It is also much easier to get a decent job if you are skilled, hard working and able to do the job. Even if one can't get a suitable job due to unforeseen circumstances, there are more reliable places to seek assistance.
In Southeast Asia, the quality of life often remains very much lower despite the rising cost of living.
However, it’s important to recognise that every experience, good or bad, contributes to personal growth. While navigating through challenging situations can be disheartening, they often teach resilience and adaptability. The ability to reflect on these experiences can lead to a deeper understanding of oneself and a greater appreciation for the positive moments that punctuate our journeys. Embracing both the highs and lows can ultimately foster a more balanced perspective, allowing us to move forward with newfound strength.
Countless times, I have worked hard to avoid feeling discouraged or sad about my situation, which is often shaped by cultural differences and circumstances beyond my control. At every opportunity, I strive to enhance my quality of life with the limited resources at my disposal, seeking to reclaim my independence through travelling and finding a place that eventually I could settle down with Mark.
Mark's homeland, the UK, remains the ideal place for both Mark and me to return to, if circumstances allow or if our circumstances improve.
One of the key reasons for my desire to return is the rich cultural heritage that the UK offers. From historic landmarks to vibrant arts scenes, the UK is a tapestry of predominantly Western traditions and modern influences. Exploring the many interesting places in the UK, attending local festivals, and experiencing the diverse culinary landscape would not only enrich our lives but also provide a deep connection to Mark's roots.
I cherish the many wonderful memories of Mark and me unwinding together after work, enjoying our simple meal together and English dramas side by side in our cozy room in our rented accommodation in London and Wigan. Thus, going back to UK will be best for Mark's wellbeing and for both of us.
I know UK is going to be cold for us but we can always keep warm indoors.
One great way to enhance indoor warmth is by incorporating cozy textiles into your living space. Think plush blankets, soft throw pillows, and warm area rugs that not only provide comfort but also add a touch of style to your home. Layering fabrics can trap heat, making your environment feel snug and inviting. Additionally, consider using curtains or drapes that can help insulate your windows, preventing drafts and keeping the chill at bay. Creating a warm atmosphere indoors is not just about temperature; it's about crafting a space where you feel relaxed and at ease during the colder months.
This cultural immersion is something I cherish and look forward to as I envision my future with Mark in the UK. I know Mark miss his homeland. I miss being together with him, cooking and cleaning for him and sharing many special, happy moments with him in UK too.
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10th June 2026
It deeply saddens me that Mark had to endure so much suffering in Cambodia during our separation. We traveled there to be together, yet we found ourselves separated. it is sad that both of us had to experience too many traumatic incidents during our separation. Southeast Asia can be a challenging place to navigate alone. I sincerely hope that Mark and I can reunite and emerge from these traumatic experiences unscathed.
11th June 2026
I regret that we ever traveled to Cambodia.
I miss Mark deeply. I long for the comfort of having him by my side right now. My heart yearns for a simple life together in our cozy, warm home in the UK. I truly miss our shared moments together, and I miss Mark more than words can express.
13th June 2026
I wish I had tried to stay put in UK when I went back to UK last year but being together with Mark is more important to me than anything else. I will continue my search for Mark or wait for him to get in touch with me again.
In addition to my commitment to Mark, I have also realised the importance of self-discovery during this time apart. While waiting for him, I have taken the opportunity to explore my own interests and passions, which has allowed me to grow as an individual. Engaging in new hobbies and meeting new people has not only provided me with a sense of fulfilment but has also helped me gain a clearer perspective on what I truly want in life and in my relationship with Mark.
14th June 2026
I hope Mark will get in touch with me soon. I hope we will eventually get to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Why must we be apart when our love for each other remains so strong? I hold onto the hope that our deep affection will one day bring us back together again.
I truly hope we can share more joyful moments and quality time together for the rest of our days on this earth.
One of the most challenging aspects of our separation is the emotional toll it takes on us. Not being able to take care of his personal needs while living apart is also very distressing for me. I really want him to be happy and for us to be happy with each other. Distance can create feelings of loneliness and longing, making it difficult to maintain a deep connection. However, the time apart can also serve as an opportunity for personal growth and reflection. By focusing on our individual journeys, we can come back stronger and more appreciative of the bond we share. When we finally reunite, which I truly hope so - we can bring new experiences and perspectives that enrich our relationship, allowing us to create even more meaningful memories together.
When we chose Thailand as the destination for our reunion, we didn't realize the challenges that lay ahead. That was our first mistake. Our second mistake was deciding to continue our journey to Cambodia, which turned out to be a significant mistake that led us to separate. However, I believe in learning from our bad experiences in life and not let the too many upsetting experiences affect us too much. But, after experiencing too many unpleasant incidents in Asia, I do feel very upset though I try not to feel too upset about it. I just get on with my life as best as I can.
15 June 2026
I hope Mark is safely back in UK. If he is safely back in UK, I am not too worried about his wellbeing. But I miss him so much and I hope I can be back with him in UK soon.
In addition to my longing to reunite with Mark, I often think about the adventures we could have together once I am back together with him. It is always interesting and comforting being together with him or just chatting with him. Exploring the picturesque landscapes, visiting historic landmarks, and enjoying cozy evenings in local cafes are just a few of the experiences I yearn to share with him. The thought of creating new memories together fills me with excitement and hope, making the distance feel a little more bearable.
What are your thoughts, readers? Do you believe I will reunite with my beloved Mark? Feel free to DM me on my X page @wendypass1969.
In the realm of relationships, communication plays a pivotal role in rebuilding connections. Open and honest dialogue can bridge gaps that may have formed during a breakup. It’s essential to discuss feelings, expectations, and any unresolved issues to foster understanding and healing. By engaging in meaningful conversations, both parties can assess whether they truly want to rekindle their romance or if it's time to move on. What are your thoughts on the importance of communication in relationships? Share your insights with me!
16 June 2026
My journey to get back in touch with Mark will continue till I get back together with him again. I can understand why he was upset with me but I hope I don't upset him again after we get back together. We got separated many times and still managed to get back together despite all the obstacles and challenges.
One important aspect of our relationship that I need to focus on is communication. In the past, misunderstandings often led to unnecessary conflicts between us that led us to drift apart but I am positive our deep love for each other will always lead us back together again. I believe that by openly discussing our feelings and expectations, we can create a stronger foundation for our relationship. Taking the time to listen to each other and express our thoughts will help us navigate through any future challenges together, ensuring that we remain connected and supportive of one another.
17 June 2026
I was genuinely moved to discover that Mark still treasures our very first special loving moments together in the UK. I, too, remember those times with great affection and warmth. I hope we can create many more special moments. This is another reason why my love for him endures (despite our many problems with each other), and why I am eager to get back together with him.
My love for Mark has led me to embark on numerous overland journey through Southeast Asia in search of reconnection. The path was filled with challenges and discomfort, yet by the end of the adventure, I realised I had gained something invaluable: a deeper inner strength to face whatever future obstacles may arise.
I truly hope to reconnect with Mark in the UK, the place where our friendship first blossomed. The bond we share is so strong that, despite the numerous problems and distance between us, I still feel incredibly close to him. Strange but true. We are not meant to be separated but somehow we got separated by circumstances that was beyond our control. Now, I can only hope and work towards finding my way back to him again.
In addition to our shared memories, I often reflect on the lessons we learned together during our time apart. Each challenge and obstacle has taught us resilience and the importance of nurturing our connection, even from afar. I believe that these experiences have only strengthened our friendship, and trust for each other, making it more profound and meaningful. As I work towards reuniting with Mark, I carry these lessons with me, eager to create new memories and deepen our bond in the vibrant backdrop of the UK.