January 2026

Readers who have been following my blog may have noticed that I wrote quite a bit about my sadness over my recent separation from my one and only soulmate - Mark Aspinall. I feel very sad that Mark is not together with me as I ushered in the year 2026. 

I try to get on with my life with each day hoping that Mark and I will reconnect again in year 2026. Through this emotional journey, I’ve also discovered the importance of self-reflection and personal growth. While the hope of reuniting with Mark keeps me going, I’ve also come to realise that this time apart has given me an opportunity to focus on myself and rediscover my passions. Learning new skills, reconnecting with people from around the world, and finding moments of joy in the little things have helped me navigate this challenging period, even as I hold onto the love and memories I shared with Mark.

My heart feels weighed down with sadness as I face yet another day without hearing from Mark. He has brought immense joy, love, and purpose into my life, and now, in his absence, everything feels incomplete and empty.

I will continue to hope that fate will somehow bring us back together again and that we will be back in each other's arms forever. Until that day comes, I will cherish the memories we created, for they are a source of comfort and strength. Every shared laugh, every lingering glance, and every whispered promise remains etched in my heart, a testament to the bond we once had. Love, I believe, has its way of finding those who are truly meant to be. Perhaps the universe is simply waiting for the perfect moment to realign our paths, teaching us lessons in patience and resilience along the way. We may be apart now, but I trust that the thread that connects us is unbreakable, stretching across time and distance until it pulls us together again.

My reunion with him in year November 2024 was the happiest day of my life. But, alas, the reunion was short-lived and was unsettling for we were without a permanent home.  I wanted so much to take care of him and get us a cozy home together but we were getting nowhere and the temporary place that he was putting up with a Cambodian family at the pineapple farm in Stueng Treng was getting more problematic as the pineapple project that he was working on seems to be getting nowhere. 

Now, I am all alone again. I feel so vulnerable without him by my side.  Despite this loneliness, I’ve started to focus on small steps to rebuild my life and find a sense of stability. With each passing day, I try to channel my energy into meaningful activities, such as, exploring creative pursuits, and finding ways to support myself emotionally. It’s not an easy journey, but I am learning to embrace this solitude as an opportunity for growth and self-discovery. While the pain of separation lingers, I hold onto the hope that brighter days lie ahead and that this chapter will ultimately lead to strength and resilience I never knew I had.

The incident in Stueng Treng that caused my separation from Mark was deeply distressing and traumatic.

I'm unsure if I will ever fully recover from it.

In addition to the emotional turmoil, the impact of this separation extended into my daily life, affecting my mental health and overall well-being. The constant reminders of our shared experiences haunted me, making it difficult to focus on work or engage in social activities. I found myself living a very isolating and lonely life due to my separation from Mark, which only intensified my feelings of sadness and loneliness. Mark had brought so much joy to my lonely life and only for it to be taken away from me. It became evident that healing would require time and an effort on my part to forgive him.

I guess, even though I am upset with him, I miss him deeply and long to be with him again. The complexity of our emotions is often overwhelming; love and frustration coexist, creating a whirlwind of feelings that are hard to navigate. The moments we shared, filled with laughter and connection, linger in my mind, drawing me back to a time when everything felt right. As I reflect on our relationship, I realise that the bond we formed is not easily forgotten, reinforcing the idea that true love can withstand even the toughest of times. Perhaps, in this struggle, there's an opportunity for growth and understanding that could eventually lead us back to each other, stronger than before.

Another essential aspect to consider is the role of communication in healing. Open dialogue can bridge the emotional gap that distance has created. By expressing our feelings, both the hurt and the longing, we create space for vulnerability and honesty, which are vital for rebuilding trust. This exchange not only helps clarify misunderstandings but also allows us to reconnect on a deeper level, fostering empathy and compassion. Through effective communication, we can explore the depths of our emotions and pave the way for reconciliation, reinforcing the foundation of our relationship. I guess sometimes in my desperation to get back together with Mark, I can only cling on to the hope that somehow fate will bring us back together again.

 

My Professional Journey

FEBRUARY 2026

I’m excited to begin my teaching project for young learners! I can’t wait to share the English language with them, using the captivating poems I’ve discovered. Wish me luck on this journey!

Through poems, I hope to encourage them to express their thoughts and feelings, building both their confidence and communication abilities. Additionally, by engaging with the rhythm and structure of poetry, they can develop a deeper appreciation for language and its nuances. This exploration not only enhances their literacy skills but also fosters creativity, allowing them to experiment with words and find their unique voice. As they create their own style of reading poetry, they learn to convey complex emotions and ideas, which can lead to meaningful connections with others and a stronger sense of self-awareness.

MARCH 2026

It looks like 2026 is the year I will finally able to combine my passion in teaching English to kids to being an entrepreneur. This journey merges my passion for education with the entrepreneurial spirit that fosters innovation in learning. Not only will I have the opportunity to teach and inspire young minds, but I will also develop educational resources and platforms that enrich learning experiences. As I embark on this path, I am excited to explore various avenues, including online courses, educational consulting, and interactive workshops designed to meet the needs of both students and educators.

In addition to my entrepreneurial aspirations, I am also keen on creating a supportive community for fellow educators. I believe that collaboration and shared resources are essential for success in the teaching profession. By establishing a platform where teachers can connect, share innovative ideas, and collaborate on projects, I aim to foster an environment where we can all thrive. This community will not only empower educators to pursue their dreams but also improve the quality of education for our students, making a positive impact in our classrooms and beyond.

Since my first encounter with Teaching English through Trinity TESOL and successful completion of my CertTESOL course with TrinityTESOL, I have consistently strive to explore innovative ideas to enhance the teaching and learning experience for both myself as a professional educator and for my students.

Embracing the digital age, I hope to integrate various technological tools into my classroom to create a more dynamic learning environment. Utilising platforms such as audiovisual media and digital/printed educational materials/apps, I aim to engage students in real-time feedback and collaborative learning.

This approach not only caters to diverse learning styles but also prepares students for real-world communication challenges. By promoting the use of digital technology as a tool to enhance their English language skills, I hope my students will be able to improve on their English communication skills and English learning skills.

My journey in teaching English has not only been about mastering the fundamentals but also about embracing continuous professional development. Throughout the years, I have engaged in various online courses and peer observations to enhance my teaching skills and stay updated with various TESOL-related learning/teaching materials.

Equally important has been my commitment to fostering a positive learning environment. I believe that a supportive atmosphere is crucial for language acquisition, enabling students to express themselves without fear of making mistakes. By implementing collaborative activities and utilising interactive technologies, I strive to create an inviting space where students feel empowered to take risks and engage deeply with the English language, thus facilitating a more effective and enjoyable learning experience.

 

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My tutoring sessions for "Learn English with Poems for Kids" are set to begin on May 9, 2026, pending the enrolment of six young learners in my one-on-one or small group sessions.

In addition to the engaging poems that will capture the imagination of young learners, each session will also incorporate interactive activities that promote language skills through creative expression. By involving students in storytelling and performance, they will not only enhance their vocabulary and comprehension but also build confidence in using English in fun and relatable contexts. This holistic approach ensures that learning is enjoyable and effective, making poetry not just a subject to study but a delightful adventure!

 

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